Monday, April 25, 2011
Wow two weeks since I've posted or shown my face around here.
Don't worry I've been thinking about you friends and fellow readers. Actually after about one week of not posting I was starting to really get stressed out and panicky. Thinking I was failing, letting people down, and not on the simplifying journey.
Then late one night, after lying awake for hours, it dawned on me. I have been simplifying. Quite a lot actually. I have been so caught up in reading about simplifying, writing about simplifying, and researching about simplifying that I didn't even recognize it when it was staring me straight in the face.
Recently I've been traveling, spending time with precious family and friends, and sitting quietly outside; often times doing absolutely nothing. I even took a Sunday afternoon nap! It was divine and I would highly recommend it!
The time has been good. It's been better than good, it's been fabulous!
I was inspired to just take a step back by my friend Laura M's post over at smash your tv and have adventures. She wasn't afraid to take charge of her life and live it, letting go of all the "bloggy" expectations. I even lamented to her about my own feelings of guilt about not posting or having great ideas, and I loved her reply: "Your life is more important than logging in to write about it!"
So that's what I've been doing. Living my simple life and loving every minute!
No ideas, no words, just reflective and introspective. With quiet down time. Trying to do nothing.
Through these quiet times I have noticed one thing coming up a lot lately.
My overwhelming interests.
I've whittled down a lot of my stuff (still in progress). Skipped holidays. Gave up Facebook. Cooked at home, a lot! Budgeted, cut the cable cord, and even dabbled in the bed bug epidemic.
But on top of all of that I've realized I'm still having a list of things to do a mile long AFTER I get home from my day job.
You see I have this great knack of getting myself involved in WAY to many other things.
Project upon projects. And they usually go unfinished.
I still have a pair of knitted socks still on the needles in a closet somewhere as a testament.
I like to say "My eyes are always bigger than my capabilities".
And it's true. So true.
My friend Stacey wrote a great post on simplifying your interests and realizing that just because you can do something doesn't mean you have to do everything.
That post has been sticking with me for a while now, and I have found myself reflecting on it a lot.
My current daily life things include my full time job (plus a part time one), maintaing healthy relationships, and not allowing my house to be condemned. (And I don't even have offspring!)
Now stack on all my current projects: blogging, photography course, adventures in the kitchen, and volunteering.
Plus projects in the works or that I am actively thinking about: becoming fluent in Spanish, learning how to play the piano.
And it all becomes too much. I can't even hear myself think anymore. Or worse, I feel guilty for sitting and reading a book for an hour because I'm not being "productive".
It's a crazy mentality, but one I'm currently trying to overcome.
My first step. Completing the projects I'm currently involved in before moving on to a new one.
Like this weekend, I worked really hard on my photography class and have completed everything except my last photo project! WhooHoo! (This is something that's been hanging over my head for two years now, so I'm excited to see the end of the tunnel)
Taking a breather,